Original author here.
As you can probably guess by the deleted original post, I'm not continuing this project. I posted this as a work in progress, not something I thought was completed or perfect. I knew there was a lot to work on throughout it, and thank you for giving me a link to the banned fetishes. In my searches throughout the forum I couldn't find it, but I had gathered no kid stuff, scat play, bestiality or extreme gore. Writing this piece I didn't realise that this fell into the category of extreme gore or guro. I didn't even know what guro was. Thank you for those who politely pointed out that it was too much and Lkynmbr24 for suggesting a way I could tone it down while still keeping with the scene. I really appreciate y'all for being so understanding and kind to me.
This was the first time I've ever shared my own writing, online or offline and wrote about the things I'm into. I've always viewed Tits and coc as something secretive and shameful. The community surrounding these games was what encouraged me to join and try to contribute. I just got out of a long stay in hospital a few weeks ago for mental illness stuff, and am dealing with a lot of irl things at the moment. I'm doing a lot better, but putting something I'd spent so much effort on, that was completely my own, out there was utterly terrifying. And honestly? Even if I wasn't dealing with what I was dealing with, Emerald's post would've probably ended up with the same reaction. I don't know if this is okay to say, but the whole thing was extremely upsetting. It read like a personal attack on myself, on what I'm into and for not getting my writing perfect the first time round. It was something completely left field when looking at the supportive community in these forums. I'm sorry what I'd written made you that upset and angry, I really am, and if I could take it all back and not have posted anything I would have.
But mostly, thank you Ranmachan. You're the only reason I built up the courage to come back and post this explanation. I don't know if I'll ever share anything here again, but if I do it's probably thanks to you for the support and kindness you showed me throughout this whole thing. So thanks, and I'm sorry I unintentionally posted a banned fetish and made some people really upset. I hope y'all had a good week and are going to have a great weekend.