How much of it was his consciousness aping a physical form that had no place in this mental realm or his actual body acting in real life he couldn't say, but it felt like he was grinding his own teeth to powder once the Song became a maelstrom of memories and emotions again.
<P...part of me?>
He sounded almost mockingly skeptical even with the searing pain lingering in his skull.This...thing that could exert such power of the Song expected him to believe that it was just a fragment of his own mind? That somehow a single part of his subconscious could dominate the Song where all other efforts had failed? At least it had reminded him of his name, though. Nathaniel. The basics were coming back at least.
It was a small comfort, though. While the voice rattled on, Nathaniel scanned for way to escape it and the Song's grip. Whoever, whatever, it was, it had the strength and skill to impose its order upon the Song. For now it was trying to tempt him willingly into its domain, but that would change once it realized he wasn't quite so desperate for power as to give in to it immediately.
Something akin to a gasp escaped his lips as the mental landscape around him blinked away. Newport, his family, Milly, Telai...everything he'd wanted whether he'd permitted himself to think of it or not was right there. His enemies gone, the future secured, Milly and Telai there to enjoy it all at his side...or beneath him in that particular instance.
<Ngh...!>
Another grunt escaped his lips but this time born of effort and anger. No. Mental power was gathered and prepared to be unleashed upon the psychic entity and any other memories that dared to try and force themselves upon him. No more being a victim or a vassal, this quest for power and knowledge would be done on his terms!
A distant, ominous noise gave him pause and then pain racing through every fiber of his being ended Nathaniel's assault before it could even begin. Oh gods, was it the other will?! Had it caught on and-No. Some sort of wolf emerged from the recesses of the song, chasing away the darkness and driving off the influence of the other power even as it sank its fangs into Nathaniel's...body, as it were.He shook and cried out, yet stopped himself from lashing back. He could feel the voice and its power growing more distant with each passing moment. But not too distant. Nathaniel could feel the presence lingering even when its grip over him shattered completely. It had roots in his mind. Whether they were always there only came with the Song he couldn't say, but it was part of him now and wasn't-!
Nathaniel barely had enough air in his lungs to even gasp as his body slammed against a soft carpet. His lay there for several moments before slowly forcing himself up. The...whatever that entity was trouble him no longer. The wolf was gone too, yet his muscles were still tense and trembling and his eyes were wide as saucers. He was in his family's library in Avalon, exactly as it had been left when he last left it. Vast and luxurious, yet practical and functional. The Brightland clan had not cut any corners in the design and construction of their manors.
The young man frowned warily and glanced about for any hint that his surroundings were just another illusion meant to trap him. He had to make certain that canine assault hadn't simply seen him trade one set of psychic fetter for another. For a few minutes, Nathaniel explored the rows upon rows of books arrayed before him. Even he with his voracious reading habits and near-religious frequenting of the real library had neither the time nor inclination to read all of the books his family owned. This purely mental construct would have to contend with that fact, which meant...well, he wasn't entirely sure, but if the books he hadn't read before were filled with centuries old recipes for sourdough, then something within the Song had managed to invade what should have been a safe haven.
That and he was kind of curious.
Either way, the rest of what should have been a Brightland manor would have demanded his attention not long after. The gardens especially. A couple of its plots were his...well, he and his mother's. One of them. They'd worked on it together-it had been the start of his hobby as an alchemist. Even if it was just an illusion born of his own memories, how long had it been since he'd tended to the tender plants, savored their sent, and strolled with her gentle hand in his...?